A female version of Sisyphus

Sometimes I feel that
life is a parody
A dream
A mission

But sometimes
I feel that I almost got
The universal answer
About who we are, why, etc., etc., etc.

… and sometimes I feel totally lost,
I don’t know where to start again,
Everything is lost,
And once again I become
A female version of Sisyphus.

Sometimes I have a gut instinct
That glitters in my brain
And I don't care about explanations,
That the language circumscribes
And so it’s impossible to tell

Just get the courage to free myself of everything
And immerse myself
In the ocean of trying not to be.